speak-in-whispers

At night, upstairs I lie, I think I know I've been stupid I hate myself I cry just to forget but tears don't take the memories away the pain I keep in my heart

voices in my head should I take the gun and kill them but kill myself I look around only darkness breathtaking darkness why shouldn't I..?

I sit here by the phone waiting for your call I'm desperate for your voice I'd like to tell you I love you... just one more time, I miss you... I sit here for hours now waiting for a sign but still you haven't call I listen to a song our song but it only makes me sad so I turn it off I know you hate me now why would you even call you've got nothing to say it's only me waiting for your voice calling me is waste of time the phone rang I listen I wait ''no thanks'' again those stupid sellers one year I've waited for your call but you didn't I stand up start cleaning I take all your stuff drop them in my garden an

I can't even controle my own heart I can only kill it how could I take care of a heart from a boy who gave it to me, the only thing I can do is break it... I'm sorry the only heart I'd pretect is his', I'd give up mine to have the heart of a lost person that I loved and who I still love... I'm sorry

try to forget you but I can't your touch, your smell your voice it makes me weak I lost it all... my fault stupid me with my stupid thoughts my terrible decisions I just couldn't get controle over myself my heart but now I have it's to late I lost it all... I see you often with that other girl you say hello we talk like nothing ever happened and you kiss her on her perfect lips I look the other way it kills me I wish myself dead you whisper something in her ear my heart died than you talk again like nothing ever happened between us you talk about my boyfriend and I get really confused I know I love you more why

so close, but still too far away... want to hear you, touch you, feel your perfect lips on mine while you hold me in your arms and I can feel my love for you running true my veins so I foget all of the world and there's only you who I feel safe with the one I would follow in the dark..

only one thing makes me sad, only one thing makes me cry only one thing is so bad, that it could break my heart. you're the only one... who can prevent that and if you don't do that... you just lead me to dead. yes it's true, i write stupid things for you.. I want you to know just stay, don't leave me. that would just kill me, that would just make me sad. whole my life long I would miss you. I hope you know that..

do you know how much I miss you, or can't you even imagine... do you know how much I love you, or can't you even remember... do you know how much i like you, or do you just pretend like its nothing... do you know why I can't leave you, do you think I'm with you just because I can't get any one else... cause that's not true why I don't wanna lose you... just imagine: you and me ... for ever

you're my light when its dark my heat when its cold you're my healt when i've pain you're my love until I am old and die the one who helps me if I cry who needs me when I'm gone he would hold me all day long he's the one who makes my life worth to live if he just could be here now... even when its for only a second so I could hold him close to me and tell him how I feel...

a boy a girl they had a fight he shouted she cried and died that night they were shouting for two hours but then she left while the boy wrote a song she went streight to her room she locked herself up and listened to the boy *just go, *I dont need you here *I'm sick of all our fight *of all the sleepless nights *in my eyes you're already dead rightnow *so die, *go out of my head *out of my life *I long for the day's, i'll spend..apart she cried did he meant that she never realised it was this bad she stood up took a pic of him and her and while holding it to her chest she jumped out of her window while the boy just